With Eyes Fixed on the Sun

slychedelic:

“چه گرميم چه گرميم از اين عشق چو خورشيد

How warm are we from this love, like the sun.”

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Rumi

i’m in class. so i’m not paying attention. and i’m going to rant instead to the internet. how classy of me.

this has all been quite a strange, difficult, and an extraordinarily life-changing experience. and i’ve come to a decision on where i would like the rest of this experience to lead me. and this decision comes with dropping more baggage. baggage i thought i had left behind a while ago but it is still fucking dragging around my feet. but really. i’m dropping everything i don’t need. 
the unnecessary attachments.
the people.
the bullshit.

its really unfortunate that people go to such great lengths for only themselves. selfishness is the most disgusting quality anyone can ever carry. i’ve made my mistakes and spited those i shouldn’t have for my own gain and those are some of my biggest regrets. but those regrets are part of the baggage. i can’t keep holding onto that. i’m moving on. i’m bettering myself to better others. because if i can’t help myself, i’d rather be doing something productive by helping someone else.

i want everyone to do something that i know will never happen but it would be really fucking awesome if it did. so if you’re reading this, i want you to do something. just humor me.
i want you to look at yourself. i want you to think about everything bad you’ve done to someone else. every time you thought better of yourself compared to someone else. every lie you’ve told. every time you’ve gone behind someone’s back. every time you’ve deliberately hurt someone. i want you to tell yourself how horrible of a person you really are. i want you to hate yourself. 

now just let it go. let it all fucking go.

start changing, cause if i can, you can. and if i can even get the motivation to try, then i know you can.

republicans vs democrats all day. its annoying as fuck. no one is better than the other. no one will ever agree with the other. one will always contradict the other, regardless of truth, regardless of lie.

but they will always balance each other. and i guess that’s why one always has to fight the other.